Friday, January 31, 2014
When's Your Monday?
Monday. The day every diet begins. The day you will "start over."
But sometimes, you blow it on Monday.
I was one of these people. Monday will be the day I eat perfectly, I will exercise my ass off, I will do everything perfect. Perfect. Perfect. Perfect. Until I would make a poor decision on Monday. And then I felt like I had failed. I have said horrible things to myself about these failures. And then, I shit you not, I would wait until the next Monday to start over. That made sense to me. "Well, I've already not done it perfectly so I may as well have another donut." Every day until next Monday.
Changing the expectation that I have to do this perfectly has been one of the most pivotal changes in thinking I've had. I don't have to be perfect. Sometimes I will totally fall off the wagon. I will totally have a bad day and want a stupid imperfect donut. But it doesn't negate everything I have been doing. It doesn't take away all of the other successes I have had. It just means tomorrow I have to work out maybe a little bit harder and get back on the wagon. That's the only option for me at this point. There is no turning back. There is no quitting. Never again will I give up on myself.
Even if Monday is a train wreck. Screw Monday. Tuesday is a new day. I don't have to make the same choices on Tuesday. Or Wednesday. There is no diet that I have to succeed at perfectly. No fast or cleanse that I have to follow to a T. I am trying to change my life, forever. My way of thinking, my way of being, forever.
I had to remind myself of this because this past Monday was not a great day for me. I did not make the best decisions and fell into the trap of feeling really badly about myself. Then to top it off I got on the scale today. I'm up 2 pounds. My once a month weigh in was a complete failure. But I didn't tail spin. (Ok. It made me a bit grumpier then I may have been.) But I got my butt into the gym tonight and had a personal best on my jog. That's what I have to focus on. Monday sucked. Tuesday I tried to rally. But it's Friday....
And I rocked it today.
Posted by Aiden and Grant's Mommy at 7:11 PM