Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Big Girl Panties
I have been putting off this post. Mostly because I was hoping things would somehow work out. But I don't think that I can deny it anymore. And it isn't healthy for me to hold in negative feelings.
I don't think this spin thing is going to happen. At least not how I thought it would. Or where it would. Or when it would. And I'm really really bummed about it.
There. I said it. While I did get some good training in, and I have repeatedly been told that I will be hired, it has been one thing after the other and chances just don't look good. I haven't been told that I won't be hired, but I'm starting to feel led on. And a bit resentful. And again, these are not good things for me to feel. So I think I have to let this go. Not my dream. I still want to instruct; but I have to put on my big girl panties and figure out a different route. I have put in a few resumes at other gyms, but so far no leads. I have no reason to believe it's anything I did. I got really positive feedback from her. But I have been told since Thanksgiving that the gig is mine and yet still nothing.
So yeah, I'm a bit upset about it. And a bit embarrassed to have to tell people when they ask. But it is what it is. Everything happens for a reason. I wanted to be trained and have had some job experience so I would have a better shot of finding a spin instructor gig in Bend since I won't have any sort of network in the fitness world out there. But if I have proven anything to myself it's that I am a bit of a fighter. This isn't over.
I will find where I belong.
Posted by Aiden and Grant's Mommy at 7:20 PM