Out of the Park

A little over two years ago, at a post baby check up the doctor told me I was in the obese category.  I dismissed him.  "I am not 600 pounds." "I just had a baby."  "I'm breastfeeding and need to eat."  "This is not even my heaviest."  It was easy for me to shrug it off.  Sure, I had some weight to lose.  But I had recovered from the Bulimia and I just had another baby and I was not going to let some number throw me back into a dark place.  I was going to enjoy being a mom....and all the food that came with it.  But I was in the dark place again.  I hated how I looked.  But more importantly, I hated how I felt about myself.  Again.

Oddly enough, that was not my rock bottom.  My rock bottom happened on the playground.  Aid wanted me to play chase.  And I did.  Or at least I tried to.  I realized I could only chase him for a few minutes before I had to tell him I was too tired.  I balled.  I had lost myself.  Again.  And because I had, I was going to be the mom sitting on the side because she was too big to get out there and play with her kid.

And that was unacceptable.

So I joined Weight Watchers.  Started counting points and lost 30 pounds.  And felt really good about myself.  But then I got stuck.  Joined the Y and started exercising.  Got stuck again.  Got the trainer.  Lost a little bit more.  Got stuck again.  Got the heart rate monitor.  Now I'm learning more about training in my zone to build up an aerobic base so I can more effectively burn fat.  So I get the most out of my workout.  I don't have time to waste. Life is too short and too precious to be sitting on the treadmill for 3 hours while my kids are playing with someone else in the play room.  I need to get in.  Get it done.  And get back to my family.

I had yet another assessment today.  Since I started this journey I have lost 67 pounds and 10% body fat.  You heard me.  10%.   I can probably outrun Aid.  I may still whimper in the heat of the training session, but the little voice in me is telling me to shut up because I know I can do it.

I didn't just hit it.  I hit it out of the park.