I haven't yet uploaded the recipe to find out the damage on these bad boys, but I walked into the kitchen last night and saw 5 butter wrappers discarded. Oh no. Somewhere in my mind I convinced myself that 2-3 a night if I trained really really hard would not do that much damage. And maybe I'll plug it in to My Fitness Pal and still find that. But something about those butter wrappers tells me that it will be even worse then I thought.
I know life is all about balance. But when it comes to sweets, I'm a little like a crack addict. I don't balance it well at all. One cookie turns into 10 cookies. Almost every time. In fact I have 3 last night.....before they were even done. They are little and delicious and my mouth is watering just thinking about them.
So there will be no cookies until Christmas Eve. Or at least, this is my goal. At some point along my journey, my will was much more absolute. I was a machine. But stalled weight loss and not reaching my goal took a tole on me. I started making calorie counting just as sick as the bulimia. I obsessed. In a really unhealthy manner. So my challenge is now how to keep myself accountable without obsessing. But I'm a crack addict. Or a cookie addict. Tomato or tomata really at this point, because they will both kill me early. An addict's an addict.
I can do this. I just have to avoid the kitchen for 3 days. No biggy....