Learning to Let Go

I took the summer off of my weight loss plan.  Well, not really off off.  But I put away the food scale, I let myself have more treats then I usually allow, I stopped tracking in my nutrition log, and I even stepped on that scale less frequently then is normal for me.  

Why would I do that?  Because I needed to practice relaxing.  I'm all an or nothing sort of girl. But in my on going emotional health, I needed to know that I could chill out, have a cupcake, and nothing bad happened.  Ok. So I gained about 5 pounds over the summer.  But that was ok.  I came back home, cut back out the treats, and picked up where I left off in my training.

It was really powerful for me to realize that I did not fall all the way off the mountain.  I relaxed.  I had fun.  I went out for drinks.  I had a doughnut in the morning. And the world did not stop spinning.  And I did not gain 20 pounds.  And....I don't have to spiral. 

The food scale is back out, I just logged my food for the day, and the trainer is coming over in a bit. I took a break, (from myself) and now it's time to get back to work.  I still have goals after all.  I proved a lot of things to myself this summer.  But this is a big one for me.  I enjoyed eating.  And I didn't go crazy.  AND, I didn't freak out.

This. is. progress.